What sud i do if i m a lesbian? i belong 2 a lower middle class orthodox family.i m 27n married?

i work in public sector.i met a colleague of me 2 months ago 4 three weeks.we had very formal meeting but i feel i love her.what i feel 4 her i never feel like that 4 my husband or any other man.now v r not in touch.still i remember her.despite of having bad sex life my husband loves me.i hav doubt if i m a lesbian.my parents r in their old age belongs 2 a farmer family.dey dont know about homosexuality.i dont want 2 hurt my husband or my family.i lives in a lower middle class town where even meeting with a male person is like crime.the girl i love is not with me but i want to hav her.i even dont know if she is a lesbian but her attitude n activity towards me was i found different in comparison of other female colleague.later she stopped talking with me but i found most of the time staring on me while whole training programme.without saying any word she left me on last day but i found something in her eyes.dat day was d worst in my life.one another colleague told me that she has a boyfriend.i m very restless from that day.what should i do??please help me.i dont want to hurt anyone.